Struggle

21/6

2005-06-21T07:56:00.000-07:00

Dragged myself out of bed this morning at 7am, and called her to wake her up too..
She was late haha expected and we had a long ride down to Outram.
Yup, was scary for her to draw out a syringe of blood. Had a long time waiting over time.. so had some food together before we made our way down to toa payoh... to meet up with her frenz.
it was a beautiful morning, and that was the end.
didn't enjoy the afternoon.
was in mac with her xiuyi peckying kendrick and shiu cheong.
Tried hard to do some maths but just couldn't solve them.. so frustrating..
wasn't productive today but well, the main purpose was to accompany her.
So i was so sad when we parted at 3+, haix left her to her frenz..
i boarded the train aimlessly and guess what, i fell asleep and didn't realise i was on the wrong train and went to marina...
so felt so frustrated yet again and took a long ride home..
borrowed a vcd, sequel to my sassy girl..
hehe going to watch later.. hehe
just spent the evening watching tv again..
tong xin yuan make me so vexed again, to see baozhu bullying nice ruan mianmian..
then youfu made me so sad. haix, poor ah mei... poor youfu... serves jialing right...
haix, feeling so sianx
gg to watch the vcd le
take care and nitex

21/6

2005-06-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

Spent the morning and afternoon at home. Studied biology and it was really a love-hate relation..
i loved learning bio but when it comes to revision, it's a real torment... it kills me.. the time i take to study bio, i could've completed 2 other subjs...
Haix, nonetheless, shall cont to struggle with it..
haha played games with chia in the afternoon. he came over to study and spend some time with me, though both of us quite bored at times, but i bet he enjoyed the dinner!
he was doing maths and i was complaining how tough njc maths was.. really..
yup, so when he went, didn't do much but watched tv..
youfu was nice again, so nice to see innocent him..
then mei..
hahaha..
yup struck up a date tml..
will be out in the morning and afternoon with her =)
take care peepz..
cont w ur mugging dun be jealous
=P

Zz..

2005-06-19T00:55:00.000-07:00

Pissed
totally pissed this morning.
wasted my time playing with some army guys...
Nbm, they've asked us for contact to play field nxt time..
Gonna thrash them.
Set.

Sat.

2005-06-18T09:52:00.000-07:00

Man, woke up with a headache. must be the exhaustion from yesterday and the rain...
been a good boy today, staying home with my family, buying medicine for my sis. Again.. wonder why she hasn't recovered.. it's been kinda long.. just hope she's not suffering from dengue cuz there's a case or a few in my neighbourhood...
yea, finally did some studying.. 2 chpts of bio.. but i really had a hard time in the afternoon, intermittently falling asleep.. so gave it up and went to slp againt at around 3.. and woke up at nearly 8.. man always sleep too much.. but to think of it, it's good rest for the trainings ahead..
haha then a show on 8 at 8pm, got those groups that come to perform. then this sat's episode damn nice those dancers, haha from m'sia.. v gd..! v nice..
after that watched a show on channel 8 at 1030.. wei long 2003 or wat.. damn stupid show.. was laughing with my bro.. so here i am online..
going off soon cuz tml's meeting virus and co at alvin's place to play ssc..
yea hope to enjoy some fun football again man.. hopefully no one interrupts and no playing of bball cuz the court's ours..
haha yup
hope u ppl are studying well too
jiayou !
=)

Matchday

2005-06-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

Wow wake up damn early today... went to meet my junior to pass him my sec4 notes.. he's not doing well failing subjects even in midyr.. hope he jiayou man...
haha then called the bloody alvin who was supposd to meet me but of course as usual he was sleeping.. so i went down to school myself.. 7am! haha went to retrieve my boots and made my way down to douby ghaut.. haha ..
so waited around for the rest and we finally reached boon keng bout 845?
then the match started about 915.. haha played at st. wilfrid.. the synthetic grass field.. man it sucks.. prefer traditional grass.. more cushion and grip...
sianz la played centre mid for a while then rested... before coming on as a lost sheep.. by the second half we were in no mood to play le la.. leading them.. haha
won 5 3 in the end.. sianx next time muz partner chia throughout the match.. then play 442.. haha so funny after the match rama says that we've got a good midfield haha and disciplined team.. haha yup they played well too skilful players, just lacked the teamwork..
haha so surprising she came down to watch the game w shuhuiz.. haha then huiz treated hock like emperor like that esp when he got injured.. so funny everyone giggling over it..
ok lar v tired to describe the details later on..
we went ps then ate lor.. sent her home and we gathered at pecklim's hse..
now playing there lor haha
topspin
later gg for class dinner
haha today really played all day sianx
haven study..
die die
think not many ppl in same boat as me le
hahah die die

Movie fiesta

2005-06-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

Man, today is like a whole day of fun!
haha woke up and didn't manage to do much, except to marvel at chilin lin in life! haha read about her and was wondering what goddess she was... haha
after that dated her out for a movie, Batman! yup finally watched it ! it was great !!! i loved it... shan't say much so people better make a move to the ticket counter!
yup had a simple dinner with her and was going to accompany her down to tanjong pagar to her friend's grandparent's wake, but along the way her friend advised her not to go down because she just attended her great grandma's wake so it's kinda inauspicious so we didn't go in the end.. and it was me again!
the crazy guy... borrowed vcd, alien and predator and we watched it together.. man interrupted by the shows on tv.. like superstar which she insisted on watching, and youfu which i didn't want to miss..
haha so ended up we finished at 11 and she was going home real late.. haha..
just coming here for a short chat before i turn in, looking forward to tml's match, rv against ri..
haha finally get a chance to play with virus my old teammates..
yeah!
can never forget the times we had together as a team!
Virus rocks!

Back.

2005-06-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

Yup, just came back this afternoon from 4g's chalet and slept till 8+... was really damn tired but ended up missing the class outing haha... diaox nv call me to wake me up..
yup, actually didn't intended to go for the outing because they told me they'll be watching mr and mrs smith, which i watched yesterday, so i was thinking of joining them for dinner perhaps.. in the end they watched batman! which joce told me after i woke up and sms her that is.. haha..
argH! wanted to catch batman today but no one could accompany me... diaox..
yup the chalet was pretty fun! bdae celebrations were cool man.. poled chiaming pecklim jason and even jeremin!.. the whole process was pretty violent, esp chiaming who ran all the way to changi village to escape.. struggled free from 10man!... haha but the rest weren't so lucky esp jason who was caught and taken down by me...
kenneth enyoed poling people the most man, and everyone was like damn sweaty.. haha..
then we played massive fifa xbox soccer tournament.. so funny man.. it's been a long time we guys have come together... then played mahjong.. followed by me stunnning everyone w the card trick which cejin taught me..
haha the best part was at 3+ 4 am.. i told them creepy stories.. 4 of it.. and they were damn scared and chilled... then everyone decided not to go changi hospital anymore, partly because of fatigue. but pecklim went w the gals and he said it was eerie man..
haix but in the end i went home around noon with chia. he's got to catch a movie.. so i went home to rest to go for class outing tonight la but obviously i didn't ...
well had some fun and was really glad man..
hmx after dinner managed to catch the show on 8 at 9pm.. you fu..
i was really touched by the show and was like feeling sad and sorry throughout.. i like such shows.. like many shows of the same type shown previously.. but i was think if the plots's possible, if it's real-life..
but nonetheless such shows always provoke my inner thoughts.. .. i cant describe exactly and i cant discuss much of my feelings because i may sound hypocritical?
but sometimes i really lament about the on-goings in society, how can we actually put aside competitiveness, monetary assets, materialism etc.. and maybe work towards a fair equitable society..? a wholesome one? liberal.. civilised.. compassionate..sympathy.. it's probably too ideal..
sometimes i try to incorporate some of it into me and try to make my life a worthy one.. but the restrictions of the norms of society just gets to it..
just happened to come across someone where someone denounced moralisers by saying that it's wrong for them to try to moralise ppl because it's kinda intolerance and insensitivity on their part to try to make ppl conform to their ways of living..
it's like cuz ppl are doing what they're scared of doing, what they've nv done before, or just something they don't like ..
well perhaps it's true in some sense bahx.. sometimes i wonder if i can lead my life by trying to provide help to ppl ... probably a career which enables me to make a diff to ppl's life.. well not in the sense of scientific advances but prob like with a persona touch?
yet i dun think my situation will allow me to do such things ? that's why i considered teaching at first, but i dun really wan to be a teacher who will like only teach and lecture like our lecturers in nj.. i want to be a teacher who can impart knowledge, values, and play a part in the real development of my students.. well i guess this is hard man.. maybe some teachers would want this but will circumstances allow?
maybe just like what the gp article said, tt education in our era is most probably for employment's sake, and government propaganda i think, and just somehow too lacking in making us wholesome.. tt education shld help us flourish as a person with influence flowing out from our sound characters...tt we will be able to have a hand in grooming and helping people too.. understanding each other... communicating etc...
well too much crap in my brain..
haha
feeling sleepy got to rest..
been a pig man..
gonna stay at home tml for a good rest before gg out on fri
adios..
take care everyone

Zz

2005-06-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

Wow, woke up quite early too, 10+?
Such a feat considering that i usually wake up arouind 12+, save the money for breakfast haha..
haha wanted to do read first 2 chpts of chem after lunch, but i was too drowsy so went to sleep.. oh my gosh and i slept till dinner! haha
watched tong xin yuan after that, and ya i strongly recommend it to you people.it's a very nice show, very long too..
got alot of subplots for us to enjoy.. some human experiences to relate to too.. and of cuz my fav adrian pang showing off his skills ..haha i love him man..
so just now went to read the 2 chpts so happy.. finally did some studying haha later gonna play xbox..
man jade empire rocks! the story line is so good.. i thought i was going to complete the game after killing the king.. then v sad cuz it's 70 bucks.. then the story changed and i was betrayed and killed.. and i'm embarking on another journey!! oh my i love the game!!!!
haha tml is the day i look forward to..
going to 4G chalet where i'll meet up with the old soccer guys man..
missed them so much..
take care guys.
yupz going to watch batman too.. anw madagascar wasn't tt nice after all..
adiox !

Yeah

2005-06-12T10:22:00.000-07:00

Oh man this morning woke up early just to pass my senior spec manual to one of my ex platoon mates.. he's going for Clt course and he needs it.. i was just flipping through it on my way to meet him and i realised i've forgotten almost everything.. haha heck i'll learn them in 2 more yrs to come.. was so surprised that he enlisted for the course...
so i was a good boy today, stayiing at home to accompany mum cuz she's leaving for m'sia. read the papers and watched tv. haha took care of my bro, taking him out to lunch etc.. and finally my mum and family went out and left my sis and me to tc of the house.. tough job yea.. got to wash dishes and laundry again.. haix...
after that played jade empire again.. but i was having a hard time trying to defeat a awfully powerful enemy.. and i did that only like after 1.5 hrs (of course there were other quests).. and i came to face another enemy i've failed to defeat last time.. i tried for another 1 hr but failed..
so i decided to wash up and went to meet her for dinner ..
haha had a great time with her.. a good talk and great company..
so here i am back at home at near 12am..
tired but happy..
going to rest at home tml, hope to do some work and play some games..
before training on tues and subsequent chalet!
yup gonna celebrate peck lim's and chia's birthday too
hurray!

Reunion

2005-06-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

Hmx, it was another fun day i suppose.
Woke up at naer 11 today and went to play game on xbox again, while waiting for my family to get ready for lunch. Yup had lunch, bah ku teh with my family haha then came back to play xbox again..
after that i changed at 1+ to go out to meet my rv frenz, jason alvin tze kwang to watch madagascar.. sianx chiaming couldn't make it .. but it's ok guess we still enjoyed ourselves.. the movie wasn't as good as i expected it to be though.. =( so expensive somemore haha
after that jason and tk went home,but i accompanied alvin all the way down to toa payoh cc to watch bball match, some competition. peiyu's team is playing so will be going down to give her moral support. but unfortunately, when we went down, she wasn't there.. gOsh she was at home, feeling ill.. haha sianx went all the way down ther but she wasn't there.. somemore didn't get to catch the match, which kiki will be playing also, but it starts at 7 so there's nothing we can do so we headed back to jurong point..
wow, just this journey took us nearly 3 hrs.. so we arrived in jp near 7.. man the day was gone just like tt haha alvin was lucky to have me around man..
so we joined the pa guys for dinner at crystal jade.. a pa gathering, the seniors were there..
but the food so ex man! so funny then chose la mian the cheaper ones..
sianx not v nice somemore... haha.. but nbm.. the seniors went to play bball after that.. but alvin jingxin and i stayed behind to wait for andy, who was coming from home after finishing his dargonboat race..
haha then the 4 of us had a talk while andy was eating.. man it was fun.. it's been a while since we guys have met up so we had a good talk.. felt so happy.. then we went home tgt.. to batok where vin and andy lived, before jx and me took buses home..
so i'm feeling good right now.. meeting up with my closest frenz today.. felt really good..
haha
but now
still dunno how to cope with my work..
wonder when i will do
or when i will start revising..
it just..
irritates me..
haix..
nbm
put it off..
take care everyone.
hope u guys will enjoy the hols too instead of mugging.
=)

Tired.

2005-06-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

Today, i went to school in the morning at 8am. Hmx went down to pass huimin the ladders for touch rugby.
Wonder why i made the trip, but anyway just thought that she really need it so decided to do the favour. So, since i went down i brought my boots along to trained. Not really that interesting today, and i realised my right knee is getting from bad to worse. And my kicks are still not improving. Think i got to work more on them.
Saw dillon. haha he came to play tennis with his yltc friends. at first laughed at him together with yuanming because there were so many girls and only him.. thought he having a party or what..
played a bit of tennis with dillon, so ended up i didn't get to do any work at all.. Rushed my lunch and came back to school for the temasek seminar thing.. went to seletar camp to view the combat engineers.. so funny, my head was dropping off during the lecture because i was practically dozing off throughout. haha felt so embarrassed but couldn't help it.
the demonstrations and stuff weren't any much interesting for me too. think i'm kind of immune after 4 yrs of Ncc.. so when i talked to the major later on, i told me i was kind of bored because i wasn't going to choose combat eng. as my vocation. Maybe guards or armour i hope.
Was really very tired when i got back. Was like half awake. Then had to put up with my bro's frenz noisies and i got very irritated and scolded my bro numerous times.
I was struggling to organise my messy work and i gave up, so decided to come online to look for some people to chat with but obviously there ain't any.. so here i am letting out my feelings ..
Just thought that maybe 6mth's of toil really taking it's toil on me. Or maybe just this hols.. Haven't really been resting. Been playing all along.
Come to think of it, maybe it's partly psychological.
Things aren't that good like what life was in Rv. Support and rapport from and among the close friends was strong. Good thing we had one another, if not i wouldn't know how we can tide through the difficult life in Rv. No way easier than Njc. Sometimes i still miss the good old times. I was very upset during the National schools, because nj defeated Sa, where 3 of my soccer frenz are. One of them, though the least close, only a friend, was very sore over it and our friendship just snapped. I don't know how things are now, but I'm very sad. People may think it's not worth having this friendship, but it really hurts..
Meeting up with old friends ain't easy, but at least i'm glad we've been doing it. Looking forward to tml because i will be out the whole day with Rv people. Hopefully i can gain some psychological and spiritual rejuvenation, before i face the realities of life again.
The common test, the homework, bloody project work and stuff... makes me so lost...
I just hope, life may be better bahx..
At least, i hope to make a few more lifelong friends
*hope

........................................................

Be prepared to live life with risks.
To take risks is to live, for
To be safe and successful all along,
Not knowing the
Uncertainties
You have not
Lived.
Live life not judged by its
Quantity, or any materialistic
Yardstick
But by its quality and
human sentiments.
Lead life with sorrow, grief,
Joy and laughter,
Pain and remorse.
Indeed, you'll get a new
Lease of life

Rest

2005-06-09T04:19:00.000-07:00

oh today finally got some rest at home
woke up quite late and ate lotsa food and helped to take care of my bro.. haha mum's gone to visit my grandma..she's ill and undergoing a difficult period.. maybe leaving us soon..
haha so funny spend time w my bro realise he v guai sometimes ...
but later when the aircon repairman came to service the aircons damn noisy.. then my bro's frenz playing wah so my hse was like in chaos..
yup gonna create an email list for blazers and set things gg..
sianx tml got temasek seminar then dunno if i can catch the lion city finals in tampines.. so far..
argh...
yup, nbm at least now i can play jade empire again!
hmx hope i can meet up with alvin and co on sat man..
gonna get presents and watch movie..
=)

BlazerS!

2005-06-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

Oh man, just returned home from YLTC...
YLTC rocks! haha it was an enjoyable 3 days which will add on to my bank of memories... Blazers, my team, rocks man... haha although we people are so new to each other, at least we managed to open up quite well, and the mix of personalities provided great entertainment...
sad to note is that huiling and yunbing didn't get to join in the fun because they're out of camp due to illness.. haix...
nonetheless, the rest still fought on and we actually came in second in the Island Hunt!
hmx we are actually on a similar kind of Amazing race, and we got to plan all our routes before hand... hahaha we went round AMK and TP on mon morning, and then DFAC for the high elements in the afternoon.. haha i scaled the rock wall after slipping 2/3 times, but i was v happy becuz i nearly wanted to give up if they had not asked me to continue.. thankx man..
after that we rushed to far east square with only 2 hr remaining, and man it was one hell of a rush.. haha...
against all odds, on mon, we came in on time, 7s before 5. Yea... cool...
haha the solo walk at night was cool.. was quite eerie but we did it anw.. dispatched in groups of threes... me shiyi and xinlin.. and i decided tt we 3 walk with xinlin b/w us, and shiyi was infront and me behind, to reassure xinlin who was quite scared..
haha was v glad she completed it.. =) overcame her fear.. haha it was really cool esp at the slopes where we had to help one another. .haha...
hmx yup, after tt lights out.. cool..
2nd day, oh man took such a long time to raffles marina.. we reached boon lay mrt simultaneously with terence's group and we took the bus together.. so either of us will have to wait for an hr before kayaking ..hahaha
in the end it was us..
we took the bus, and terence alighted at the bus stop before raffles marina, so we decided to stop at the next.. but guess what .. the bus didn't stop ! we travelled 40mins on a loop. cuz the bus driver refused to stop!
in the end we reached raffles marina 50mins later and waited 10mins before kayaking, so it didn't make much diff anw... haha but spirits were down la..
but the funniest thing is that terence's trainer, was with us in the bus... hahah he didn't alight!!! joke of the season man..
things lightened up thankfully during kayaking and again i was paired up with xinlin..haha had a good time la cuz we capsized and both of us are equally bad at it cuz the kayak threatened to capsize everytime we rowed.. haha so scary.. a pity tt xinlin is quite quiet.. haha needs a hard time to open her up..
after tt man it was another rush.. to haw par villa.. haha thankfully we had winston beside me.. we 2 planned the routes so many times.. went through so many routes to get the shortest possible route and finally.. from hopeless in raffles marina, we arrived with hope at haw par villa.. haha the minefield task there was damn long but it was really interesting man.. cool.. haha and winston funniest walked to the cup and spilled everything when pouring ... hahaha damn lame..
man the best was at fort canning .. the team was in one mind, one goal.. ran like hell man and everybody just put on their thinking caps.. hahaha
finally ... home sweet home to DFAC.. we did it! blazers! against all odds!
yup..
prepared for campfire and went through it.. think i was super high, sitting beside ahmad and i think we 2 shld be awarded the best audience man.. haha really lor..
somemore when my grp volunteered me for the dare, i just went up.. think it's the first time i did this kind of thing..haha..
oh man.. the crazy chicken.. think i really lost myself.. man.... oh man it's just so funny but i'm really glad that everyone are entertained...
as for our performance, we screwed up, but i'm still damn proud of them because we've put in so darn much effort and i never regretted being in blazers..
haha then wed morning.. surprise night hike.. all the way to summit of bkt timah hill.. cool man it was an arduous journey.. was pretty worried for the girls.. esp shiyi also whose back was hurting throughout.. but again, i was so proud of them.. xinlin was like, didn't realise she could endure all these , and yes, it's all in the mind and the team's the motivation man ...
then the dragonboat.. sianx got separated.. nbm so then ended..
was feeling quite sad thing's gonna end... we've only just started to bond and it ends..
i just hope we will continue with the friendship man...
after tt me winston ahman junyuan dave xinlin mitchell janice and aini went suntec to chill and eat..
haha damn funny the whole group was fooled by my tricks and jokes for an hr + till they couldnt take it.. and when we left on mrt (red line) i continued till everyone decided we shld really take a break.. man this was the first time my tricks are so bloody good man...hahahaha.
haix.. gonna miss blazers man.. since orientation have never felt so good again le... except for national schools..
now gonna intro all members of Blazers'05:
Aini: She's a half indian man! we cant believe it.. haha kept laughing throughout with ahmad when i was attempting to speak malay.. like i was a clown like that.. yup an easy going and firm girl who will take the initiative to control the group and scold people out of their ideas..

Ahmad: Man the noisiest man in the camp i think.. just cant stop talking man.. sometimes really just dunno what the heck he's talking man just on and on.. haha nonetheless having him here really helped to keep things positive and going man.. great IC on day 1 too ! yup, super with cheers man haha..

Dave: man he's a bloody good actor.. on our way back to DFAC 2nd day, acted an ankle sprain (which he said was shin sprain!!!!) so that winston and me carried him back and it was punishing man.. haha... but he's really a nice guy though being quiet with junyuan all the time.. but he's real comical time and like he always says.. i'll rise to the occasion.

Junyuan: think possibly the most quiet guy le but glad he opened up, of course after being a great IC on day 2!!! hehe sometimes he jus sits aside and i wonder if he's thinking of which girl.. but very cooperative nonethelss =) !

Shiyi: oh man haha my rv old friend.. though we not v close but still glad we could get along.. haha reminiscing about the old times during the camp.. but he's quite quiet haha but he's very funny also esp when he talks about his reflections. his tone is damn funny..haha.. yup he's a serious and responsible guy also! prez of his cca worx...haha

Winston: hmx my helpful pal during the camp, helped me with so much things tt i am so grateful to have him by my side.. supports me in all things i do.. be it cheers, the island hunt or simple needs like needing toilet papers.. haha he rocks man!

Janice: oh man. nothing to say but BLUR !!!!!! exactly like steven or even worse.. just so damn blur !!! haha and she's so pathetically cute when she whines every time we scarca her... hahah but great having her here to sarca la and obviously a tough girl who went thrgh the camp with a recovering stress fracture in her ankle and shin splint.. wonder how she did that..

Priscilla: yup the gungho look girl.. haha turned out to be loud also, haha laughing with us all the time.. some more so fit.. haha.. aiyo then so shy at times so more then always stick with xinlin.. haha then intro us the black white sheep game so funny lorx.. haha nice friend to have man...

Xinlin: haha the quiet gal... haha but luckily she opened up a little. man i tried so hard to open her up throughout the camp.. didn't expect her to be so quiet hahaha but a girl with a burning passion for badminton.. can tell from her height.. haha had a great time with her during the nightwalk and kayak.. yup nice girl to have in the team !

Mitchell: haha solid leader also lehx.. IC for 3rd day.. haha tough girl also being in OAC and tougher camps .. v funny also esp the way she laughs haha ... then quite hyper also and likes to cheer.. v cooperative person haha helping to organise things.. great teammate!

Yunbing: haha the baby of the team.. the youngest but surely not the most quiet haha always there with her c old or funny comments ..haha but it's good to have her around to show of f the gal's mother hen skills! hope she's doing well with her fever..

yup nonetheless . our trainer, AzLan!
oh man he's so short, so funky, so funny, so hunky, so handsome, so lazy, so chatty... so... BRAVO!
blazers will never be where we are without him man.. given us so much help and taken such good care of us.. and of course blazing the trail with us during the night hike for the are the leading group..!
and...
Ms Chue !!1
haha a sneaky woman who always runs away... erhEMx... for her pRivate Matters.. aiyo even last gathering also got sth on.. very cheeky arx...
haha but v funny la everytime see us will say, why so sianx, let's play some games okx.. haha so funny lor.. hmx always there to look out for us, and take the buses, run with us etc.. and of course with mr azlan~!.. haha knw what they did on the bus !!!!
haix..
all good things end..
toay is not the end
it is only
the beginning
of Blazer's a
everlasting
FlamE ~

YLTC

2005-06-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

i'm going off for YLTC camp le just finished packing my big sack..
hmx today woke up at 11+... man had such a good sleep.. actually intended to pack my bag and stuff and try to organise my work, but ended up with steven at yishun stadium cuz he asked me if i wanted to watch the matches.. i was quite willing la and also didn't want to disappoint him..
hmx stated with the s'pore u18 against australia.. sianx the match was quite ok in the first half but singapore was being dominated by aussies completely in the second half.. nothing much to watch for.. though s'pore won 1-0 haix the goal wasn't much to cheer about also.. the u18s were obviously off form today.. even my idol shahdan didn't shine.. boo...
nonetheless i was so hyped up that i wanted to stay for thr 730 match..
spore u17 against m'sia! before that i saw all the m'sian players.. man i admired them.. can sense the aura around them.. so i was very eager to see their strength...
the match started w a big bang with m'sia completely dominating spore and a great display of attacking prowess... man the right winger is damn fast and skilful.. so dangerous are the flanks of msia.. cool..
nonetheless spore managed to find their footing and started to play more decently..
the goal scored by msia was keeper's fault though, letting the ball slip through his balls from a powerful ground shot. but the credit is to the striker/midfielder for setting himself up brilliantly..
2nd half spore played much better, i think cuz msia was on the low pedal. wonder why they didn't want to kill the game..
waiting for sth better?
yup on wed after my camp i'll go watch spore u18 and msia u18
should be damn exciting just like sat the spore vs msia tiger beer causeway match..
went home damn late had to pack my stuff.. sianx.. tired.. then online pw meeting .. crazy..
so now tired writing blog..
just wish u guys a happy 3 days while i'm away
hahahaha
nitex

Exhaustion

2005-06-04T08:03:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6am today so that i could reach sch by 7am to train... arranged to meet steven and dillon.. end up we didn't train much because they're late and we didn't get down to serious stuff...
soccer training wasn't that fantastic.. think i also pissed dillon off because i was really damn pissed.. weren't in the mood le..
so i quickly went off for my PW meeting.. which sucked...
but i was quite happy because i was able to contribute.. however going to the meeting brought me back to reality to the amount of work piling in my backyard..
hmx finally then crystal arrived! with the tennis rackets! i was looking forward to playing with them... we enjoyed lots though the weather was unforgiving.. eventually i succumbed and my body was in tatters... my legs ached inexcruciably and my back was stiff and sore.. my pelvic seemed to be lacking lubrication and creeked with every movement.. in the end had to watch them from the side..
hehe after that continued our PW meeting at KAP... waited so long for the lunch. 3+... i was starving from 6 to 3.. oh my...
had quite a fruitful discussion, and dug myself a shit hole by volunteering to do so much work but i guess it's ok because i wanted to make up for what i didn't do for term 2...
had a fabulous dinner with my family...
ate so much fantastic food.. !
kkz, my body is screaming in pain.
Sleep is essential

Class outing?

2005-06-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

oh man today i woke up from my sweet sleep at 12pm++ oh my god...
i was supposed to meet my class at 12 at city hall for lunch.. today is the so called class outing whereby we're dining together and shopping for presents for wenjing.. wenjing is the sm2 scholar who was with our class for term 2... haix she's actually a very nice girl but i didn't get the chance to interact much with her because i was too busy with soccer..
so today even though i was so sluggish i dragged myself out of the house to make the trip down... wanted to bade her farewell so that at least she remembers me =)
hmx so i made the trip down, but was disappointed by the turnout although i wasn't in the least surprised... alicia, crystal, hong tuck, weekim, peckying, qihan, guan zhi and priscilla.. then me and jocelyn joined them.. .yah i waited for nearly an hour for jocelyn at city hall mrt... so that we could join them together.. oh my god it was one hell of a wait.. haha just staring at the clock and trains passing by...nbm got to care for my niece..
hmx sianx realised they ate at long john... lucky i had mine at home.. hehe much nicer.. then we aimlessly shopped around and decided on a necklace from perlini's silver..
rushed down to changi after that, meeting xiang long and wanzhen on the way =)
hehex... sianx was so sad when i say bye to her, cuz i feel guilty for not giving the hospitality she deserved during her stay..
after that.. went bugis to eat... but only left guan zhi xianglong ht and me and wz... so sad lorx.. everyone left.. worst is for wz to be the only girl around.. had katong laksa.. quite nice but just that the serving is too small.. hehe...
hmx.. then i very sad just now cuz i saw ht being very sianx.. so i asked him why.. actually i knew cuz i was feeling the same..
it's like the class outing kind of flop. but guess i wasn't that sad because i was mentally prepared.. all my life i've never been in a class which is close and bonded and fun.. but he was so with 2D... so i guess he felt very disappointed..
my only very very close grp of frenz is alvin chia jason and tk le..
i envy him man, 2D still meets up quite often..
but well.. i just hope 6A will keep on improving bahx but though it's hard..
all i can say i tell ourselves not to give up !
haix..
all the bez for 6A..
hope tml soccer training at 9 everyone turns up though i know it's impossible..
think the team really needs to get things done ...
everything is so messed up..
muz do something le..

Tired

2005-06-02T09:00:00.000-07:00

Sianx.. went back school for lessons from 745 till 4... it was torturous man.. had chem then GP!! oh my god ho poh fun really wasted my time... didnt learn much from that 2 hrs lorx..
luckily after that rushed down to black canyon coffee to join the class for lunch.. wasn't that fantastic after all but it's ok..
however after that went back for physics.. felt like sleeping lorx... sianx ..
but i was very sad couldn't join crystal and co. for tennis.. then i felt so bad because i was the one who suggested playing the day before at cineleisure..haix... went to join the soccer guys to watch nj touch ruggers and later the lion city matches..
i stayed on with steven till 8+ to catch both the under 16s and under 15s... but the under 15s were disappointing so we left halfway..
really very tired..
but now..
think i got to play some jade empire on xbox..
can sleep till late tml.. hehe..

=(

2005-05-31T08:28:00.000-07:00

Very sad today.
although i was quite ok initially... enjoyed the yltc pre camp a little but a pity that she was split up from me.. deliberately.. Argh...
but on the way home, went to eat dinner with steven dillon alywin and ms ho.. haix then dunno what we were talking about and the conversation switched to me being lambasted for treating other girls very well even though i'm attached... ms ho was educating me for quite a long time.. i felt very sad because this way many people have mistaken me.. i didn't know how to react and felt very sad cuz i felt unjust..
why can't i be nice to my close female friends? they're my friends back from rv for quite a long time for god's sake.. it's not that i'm attached so i can't be close to them yea.. i do have friendships i treasure alot.. just by being close to them doesn't mean i love her any less...
i'm not a flirt or whatever too because i am just that damn faithful. i treat them as my sisters..
maybe people don't see me being that close to guys or treating guys that well, because none of my close guy friends are in njc... in fact i'm not close to any of the Rv guys in njc.. i'm closer to my female friends in here..
my only close guy friends are in soccer. they're my only family here.
my class don't provide me with the warmth. it's just a group of people i study with. sometimes i feel so out with them.
i don't know how i should feel.
i don't know what to do.
if you're one of those do thinks i'm wrong too,
then your judgement should be more open.

2005-05-28T10:43:00.000-07:00